Monday night

Okay, now maybe I'm getting paranoid. Today Dr. M's office called and again - AGAIN for the 5th time since the original appointment was scheduled in October 2010 - cancelled a scheduled appointment. I was supposed to see him at 8:00 am tomorrow. They offered 10:00 am but I had taken 1/2 day off of work and already scheduled doing something else at 10:00 am. They offered 3:00 pm but I didn't want to take the whole day off of work. Plus the last time I had an afternoon appointment scheduled with him, I was on the bus on my way to the appointment when they called to cancel the appointment so I missed an afternoon of work for no reason. When they rescheduled me the 4th time, I actually offered to BET the woman in his office that she would be calling me again, to reschedule a 5th time. I offered to buy her lunch if he didn't do so. But she didn't accept the bet.

With good reason. Apparently.

Frankly it FEELS as if they are doing this on purpose, to screw with me. I know that's not true. I certainly want a doctor that makes "emergency surgery" the priority over wellness visits, which is what I assume my visits are. But at some point, after 5 months and 5 cancellations, at some point I actually NEED to see the oncologist "in charge" of my care. They ended up rescheduling me for next Monday morning. At that appointment I am going to tell him how I am feeling. I am going to ask for another doctor in his practice to back him up if he ever cancels on me again. I am not going to go through this every 3 months for 5 years. It is too stressful. And, if he cancels the appointment on Monday, then I'm going to fire him and fine another oncologist. I respect his need to "be there" for patients when they are in emergency situations. But it looks like he doesn't have any time at all for other patients. Maybe he needs to stick to the emergencies and let someone else handle the care of patients afterwards.

I continue to be inspired by the events in the Middle East. One, two, many Egypts! And Wisconsin! As far as the U.S., I don't think we've seen anything yet, and I expect things will get worse, much worse, before people everywhere are ready to take to the streets. What the governor of Wisconsin wants to do is what the majority of people in this country apparently just voted for in the U.S. Congress. My grandmother, Mattye Nelson, used to say "Be careful what you ask for - you might just get it." Ain't that the truth!

Likewise, I guess it is being six decades old now, but I worry about what comes after the uprisings in Egypt etc. When you stir the fire, sparks fly and you can get burned. Is it a good thing, even a great thing, to see the people of Egypt and other countries rise up? It is a truly great thing. But the hard work of addressing society's problems isn't a celebration, it's hard work. I hope we human beings are up for it.

Peace.