Friday morning

Zap #11 and Zap #12 down, 13 zaps to go

For some reason, Wednesday's radiation treatment wiped me out. I was so tired, I could hardly lift an arm. I think I slept 11 hours. I also had some discomfort in my abdomen, sort of aching in my pelvic bones. They took a bunch of x-rays on Wed. to confirm the line-up for the radiation, and they ended up changing the hatch marks they drew on me (one on each side and one in the middle, where they put the tattoos). They said this was normal, and the change was very small. I was also wiped out again after yesterday's treatment, not quite as bad, but almost. Basically after 7:00 pm, I'm useless. They did blood work yesterday and I should be able to find out the results today. I wonder if my blood counts will reflect the reason for my fatigue.

It's getting colder again and supposed to stay cold for a while. I guess Jessie and my walks in the park this weekend will be chilly affairs. I really need this weekend, to bounce back from this fatigue a little bit. It's depressing to me that after today I will only be half done. I'm trying to hang on to the thought of spring, but it was easier this past week when the temperature hit 57 degrees and I saw a huge flock of Canadian geese grazing in the lawns of St. Joseph's College. Yesterday we got snow, not a lot, but enough to cover the grass everywhere and bring back the look of winter. Last night the feel of winter arrived and iced up everything that had melted. Black ice, dark mood, somewhere under there, optimism sleeping, waiting to be woken again.

Peace.